depression loses again

she was waiting for me

to subtly capture my mind and control my body again

she stood at my doorstep

with a voice so sweet she welcomed me

as a wife welcoming her husband home from war

she embraced me

meanwhile

she was waging war against me

she was the war raging within me

she wanted to sit with me

empty me from my identity

tell me everything she missed about me

who I used to be when she lied to me, paralyzed me, and made me feel unworthy

debilitating me

she was waiting for me

to tell me not to eat or speak but to only sleep

she was waiting for me

she stood at the foot of my bed

to make sure my feet never touched the ground

to control me with the chaos that kept me bound

remain in darkness as night turns to day and day to night

two days two nights

she was waiting for me

this time I saw her coming

she tried to creep in

this time I fought

with every fiber of my being

remembering

no weapon formed against me shall prosper

even when the weapon is me

Written: 25 July 2021

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Godspeed 💛🌻

SimplyAriRenee